it was a mundane day at work. thus, i decided to have a talk with a colleague of mine in her room. pada awalnya, topik perbualan kami berkisar perkara yang lucu-lucu tapi, selepas itu, cerita kami makin serius pulak.
"myra, do you have trust issues?"
"what do you think?" (sambil tersenyum)
"akak tak tau. mungkin?"
sebetulnya, aku tidak selesa ditanya soalan sebegini.
let me tell you one story.
pernah satu ketika, Person A had her trust betrayed. she confronted Person S just so she could get her curiosities out of her bloody system, but all she got was an answer which was, definitely sugarcoated with an awful lot of lies.
to say that she was hurt, is pretty much an understatement. if there is another word much stronger than hurt, then that was exactly how she felt. the fact that that person lied through his teeth and to her face, it was like someone had stabbed her with a knife and cut her through. in the slowest manner possible.
what made the pain unbearable was that, she knew he was lying because she discovered the whole story (the real one, of course) prior to the confrontation. and she didnt understand how he had the audacity to look at her in the eye, and feigned the truth.
and frankly speaking, until today, she couldnt get rid of that painful portion out of her memory box. every single time she tries to put this incident behind her, it will pop up just for good measure. mungkin sebagai gentle reminder untuk dia.
she did talk to a friend (lets call this friend B). upon hearing her story, B told her to get over it and accept that he did what he had to do because he didn't want to hurt her.
end of story.
so, after listening to this, i understand why Person S lied to Person A.
tapi..
niat tidak menghalalkan cara, bukan?
if this is the principle you hold on to, then suffice to say, anyone has the licence to lie on certain circumstances, provided, atas dasar kamu tidak sanggup buat si anu terluka. mungkin untuk sesetengah orang, sudah ada justifikasi di situ.
tapi bagi saya, itu crap. itu bull (i know i said earlier i understand but that doesnt mean i condone).
"a half truth is a whole lie". imagine being in her shoes where the lie was remotely far from being a half truth. not even one tiny bit.
that said, from this entry, saya pasti kamu tahu my stand on trust right? :)
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ps: once bitten, forever shy.
pss: dont dare say i never tried, because i sure as hell did.
